i am feeling sickeningly sentimental today. i'm listening to On Fire by Switchfoot. i haven't been listening to this in over a year. i remember listening to this over and over one night i stayed up teman-ing you study till the wee wee hours of the morning. i first heard this song when i was at the Switchfoot concert february last year. a few seconds into the song, and i felt odd. amidst the thousands of people around me swaying to the tune, holding up lighters up in the air, all in rather a trance so intoxicated by the emancipating ambience that cradled every single person in that large room, i stood still. that odd feeling was too overwhelming. it crept under my skin and filled me with anxiety so strong i felt like my head would crack right at the top any minute then, and a fountain of water would erupt out of it so violently it would wash everyone off of their feet, and i would later crumble into a thousand pieces from that immaculate splendour.

and amidst my thoughts spiraling wildly i envisioned ways that would immortalise that perfect moment when emotions collided like crashing waves on jagged rocks, and when the rapture subsides you have merely soft ripples gracefully sweeping away the remnants of the excitement. less dramatic ways that would make that moment echo..until i get sick of remembering such a corny make-belief for a corny situation. omg and it just dawned on me how even cornier it would be if i were to tell the world what exactly that corny thought was so i'm just gonna stop myself here ask me personally if you really really need to know (malu dah).

XD

anyway, initial point was that i wanted to express how intense i find this song is to me, and how much it reminds me of whatshisname and i during the infant days of our then friendship. we'd be texting all night about all kinds of random things. he was like my secret friend that i got close to by chance. the friend that at the time needed all the care in the world he could get to believe in happiness again. i felt compelled to always being there for him through his sad stories and lonely nights. even though from a distance. many many months have passed and along with them the tales told that got us to where we are today. at the risk of getting more painfully mushy from this point onwards, i'll stop myself. XD

this is a totally random post that started with a song i worshipped.

and i'm ending it with a totally random picture of whatshisname trying to look all insufferably cute for his girl..

XD

i <3 you too hensemku!