LOLspeak craze lately. sorry.

anyway, i'm halfway through my engineering degree. iz all groan up nao. so i feel like talking about something grown up today.

i had just done watching this video on youtube, Muslim Demographics: The Islamic Tidal Wave. it's really a fascinating little thing they were telling me in it.

for a culture to maintain its existence for more than 25 years, there must be a fertility rate of 2.1 children per family. which only makes sense because there must be more children than parents for a community to expand. anything less and a culture will decline. no culture with a 1.9 fertility rate has ever been able to reverse the trend, what more less.

it is customary we see that the west don't celebrate procreation very festively. marriage altogether in fact. most scorn the belief that marriage and children are necessary beyond the needs of two people to start a family for themselves. here is proof where procreation affects the entire existence of a community.

by 2007, the fertility rate in Europe:

-France 1.8
-England 1.6
-Greece 1.3
-Germany 1.3
-Italy 1.2
-Spain 1.1

historical research has confirmed that the overall fertility of Europe up to date of 1.38 is impossible to reverse. the continent is facing a gradual depletion of population. in a matter of years, Europe as we know it will cease to exist.

in France, the birth rate of Muslims is a whopping 8.1 per family. in Southern France there are now more mosques than cathedrals. by 2027, 1 in 5 Frenchmen will be a Muslim. in 39 years, France will be an Islamic state altogether. i think this is a phenomenal find, don't you?

King Edward Longshanks of England somewhere between 12-1300 AD was still pursuing Scotland to become a part of his ruling Kingdom, William Wallace and his noble Scotsmen were in the way. So Longshanks once said, "The problem with Scotland, is that it's full of Scots. If we can't force the English into Scotland, we'll breed them in!"

and verily that was what he did. he announce the new order of prima noctu. the order of the first night. for every young Scottish maiden married off, she will spend her wedding night deflowered by an English soldier. Wild soldiers often terorrised villages raping young virgins in order to 'breed English blood in'.

when i watched Braveheart which is my most favourite film ever, i thought, well that's daft what good will that do, the 'English blood' will be raised by the good Scottish people anyway it's not like they'll grow up organising a coup against their own mothers upon finding out that omg they're English actually.

then i learned that culture flows in the blood as much as it is honed into the minds of people. you have slits for eyes, brown skin and squashed nose; fiery red extensions in your hair and vodka everynight is not going to make you Caucasian, hello, tu tak sedar diri namenye.

this is a story of survival of the fittest. soon maybe the west will start realising making babies is not something you decide for or against on a whim? it can change the world apparently. being agnostic is not a culture. it's kindaf like giving way to Muslims who are seeping into your community not by weaponry or terrorism, but dominating your space because you've left too many of them vacant for being so hedonistic. living by the moment. for every hundred Muslims you kill, ten times of that are being born in your very own country and only now you're going, i'd better start believing in God quick before they beat me to it.and oh noes, the swine flu is killing us off, great, how convenient!

hmm, you could try racial cleansing but i kindaf thing it's too late even to make that work now.

 kiamat dah nak dekat kan.

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okay on a lighter tone! since i am back in Ipoh kan, i need a date for the 14th of May. any takers? =)

and Bernard Fong i need my Dan Brown books back please its been 4 years..  X(.

p/s: i solemnly promise i will update this blog from time to time now on. =)

saye tgh layan doughnuts and cranberry juice. nak sket?

i'm sleeping by midnight (give and take) everyday from now on. nak join?

i'm going to do sit ups and work my thighs on the trampoline every morning.

i'm going to drink 10 glasses of water everyday too. coffee is not water it makes you wee a lot stop it aimi.

i shall smile more than i groan. there's just too much angst in me. i need to draw it out.

i shall do more therapeutic things like start painting again seriously, and maybe bake.

i'm not going out often and expose myself to obnoxious people on the road.

i'll stay at home more where it almost always peaceful.

i need to look in the mirror and stop hating every tiny bit of me all the time.

i haven't been taking care of myself lately.

no one's helping either. this has got to change.

my body is crying. i'm not ok.

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internet ni mcm babi k dah berape kali dah restart this post sumpah bengang..

 

i had my tooth filled yesterday!

it was epic.

 

 

but what was more dramatic was the hours that led to it.

 

see i never realised i had a cavity that sneaky little bitch at the back of my
upper incisor..before only a few days ago i started to notice that my tooth
was appearing more and more translucent that i could see the hole
through my enamel! so i took my compact powder, shoved it into my mouth,
stood in front of my standing mirror and screamed
NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

 

after that? i went through a full-on lengthy panic strike and dari tak rase
pape tak sakit pun bleh tibe2 sakit, psycho yang tah pape. the cavity was
actually bad and for months it grew i never saw no felt it. terer kan?

i then went to my sister who is the goddess of toothaches to present my
woes. oh she is the goddess of toothaches. she's had cavities filled, an
upper front tooth crowned after breaking half of it due to a nasty wheely
chair accident and probably will need a root canal done if it gets infected
anytime soon, and is having her canines removed before her braces are
fitted in. she'd know how bad my tooth was.

 

Azyan: alah..mcm la awak tak penah tampal gigi..

Aimi: ye ah mane penah gigi depan pastu dalam cmni! X(

 

and i was pestering her through and through asking her fifteen times in
a span of a minute if the dentist would hurt me like this.

 

Aimi: tapi die blom sampai gusi tu lagi kan? tapi die takde la dalam sangat
        kan? kalau tampal gigi belakang lagi sakit kan?
        ni tak sakit macam gigi belakang kan? lame tak die drill nanti?
        nanti die drill rase pape tak? pastu kalau die takleh
        drill jugak camne? nanti kene buat root canal jugak ke??
        before die drill ni nanti die inject tak? mane lagi sakit
        inject ke drill?? scaling? lagi sakit scaling dari drill kan?
        sakit tak, tak sakit sangat kan? nanti camne die nak drill
        macam susah je? lepas die tampal nanti boleh berlubang balik tak?
        ke suruh die potong je pastu letak crowning?
        crowning sakit tak?!??!!1

 

if you had me for a sister you would probably dramatically collapse to
the floor pulling your hair out and wailing something in spanish like a
distressed gypsy.. X)

 

i dunno i just pictured a distress gypsy wailing in spanish because she
can't go on with life anymore..for having me as a sister. XD. i am needy
and pushy and i take sisterhood for granted. =D

 

BUT I WAS FUCKING SCARED no bull. i complained to sititot as well but
she never had any teeth filled so that was no help she wouldn't be
able to tell me that it wouldn't hurt which was the only thing i wanted
to hear. i complained to syuk who was plainly lying to my face that it
wouldn't hurt at all even though that was what i wanted to hear.. XD

 

you're right, baby, i'm hard to please.

 

and i made my boyfriend call me all the way from india like it was a life
and death situation but he's never had any filling done either because
he's way scared-er of the dentist than i am so telling me that it wouldn't
hurt was worse than lying to my face it was a conniving trickery! thanks
anyway sayang.. XD

 

 

i successfully made my tooth problem an epic issue that most of the
people i'm closest to should worry about as well. =D

 

 

i was so stricken with sadness and fear that i refused to eat dinner and
slept in through breakfast. my mum woke me up at 11 in the morning
yesterday and told me to get ready to go see the dentist.

 

so we arrived at about 12.30pm. from experience i thought i'd only have
to wait behind about only two to three other patients at the most. this time
though, i had to wait in a whole entire line of EIGHT PEOPLE. this is the
part where syuk would say "i dah cakap dah buat appointment dulu, u
memang forever degil bitch.."

 

X)

 

so my turn only came at 3pm. my mum was nodding away in sleepy land
beside me poor thing. lol. so i went in and, wau, sudah maju lah klinik ni!
kali terakhir saye datang i was wearing my blue librarian skirt and the
dentist chair was facing the opposite way. now there's a monitor below
the light so i can see the scanned photo of my gigi berlubang while i'm
being drilled away! kagum lah..

 

so drill drill, korek korek, blow blow, suck suck, tampal tampal, some laser
beam thing she did and i was done within 2 minutes or so. it hurt like any
other tooth filling procedures i'd gone through before. only this time the
pain came earlier than i thought it would. obviously the cavity was quite
deep.

the best thing about my visit was that after almost five years the nice
young lady dentist still remembers me!

 

dentist: in university already aa you? which university hmm?

Me: UiTM..

dentist: oh you dad university, haha, how's doctor? how's your sister
             azyan? she should come by some time let me
             check her crowning hor..

 

so nice leh the dentist. see my mum's face osso remember. i like her lah.
best dentist ever. so gentle pulak tu..

 

X)

 

so that was my toothache escapade. XD.

 

 

 

next, i want to tell the whoooooooole world about how
BRILLIANT ANGELS AND DEMONS WAS!!!!!1

 

 

[SPOILER ALERT!!!!!]

 

 

i watched it the other day with sititot and berlina. it was spellbinding.
the book came to life omg!

 

although when i read it some years ago i kindaf pictured il camerlengo to be
played by Sean Bean..remember Sean Bean as Achilles' best friend in Troy?
yeah. brooding and kind, and turns out to be evil in the end. and i thought
Vittoria was gorgeous! in a very sturdy way. i imagined her to have an olive
skin though but this one was good enough. i think italian women are sexy.
like Asia Argento in Marie Antoinette? LOVE her voice..

 

they missed a couple of parts though like a whole big part at CERN.
Vittoria and Robert having sex at the end but that would spoil the
epic pope-on-the-balcony-adressing-the-world part though. and they
forgot to mention the part where Silvano was actually Vittoria's father?
i think i'm right..i don't know my book is still with BERNARD FONG.

 

but all in all. it was riveting. even though i knew the ending and the exact
moments and the ways each of the cardinals would die my heart still
shook at every breakthrough discovery the characters found running
down the trail through the Vatican and Rome.

 

and the explosion was reverberating, no?! so pretty..

 

i loved the entire energy of the film. it had nice climactic peaks saddling
into very delicate emotional parts, perfect blend!

 

and italy is soooo beautiful in the summer, would anyone like to take
me there some day? please? i'd like to see the cathedrals and castellos
myself..

 

and this was by far my favourite quote out of the film..

 

Religion is flawed, because men are flawed.

 

i have seen this line used many times in different ways. that is the only
explanation to why people are forever comparing the best of each
others' religions. "my horse is better than your horse because my teachings
come from God and yours are man-made.."

 

and obviously if a religion is man-made then it is no different from
worshipping yourselves.

 

anyway, completely out of topic. X)

 

just go watch Angels and Demons damnit..

 

 

=)

 

my billy and fatherhood looks so adorable.. that's little dreavyn martin! i think the three of them with linzi make a cute little tim burton family. X)

so my adam lambert lost. *eyes rolling*

i wanted him to win because i admired how much drama he puts into his performances that really gave them the rough edge and his high notes were always so spot on.

kris was always the laid-back jason mraz-y kind. he had a lot of clarity but nothing overwhelming. but nevertheless! either one would have deserved as much to win in their own different ways and the way kris mcm chill gile lepas menang tu xde gelabah2 nangis2 ke mcm AF like 'dude i dunno what tosay i mean..adam man..i dunno..i dunno how to feel..whatever'..cm best ar, i like his humility. =)

i woke up early today just for this! good morning malaysia!

a longer post later in the day but no promises..

gently, so gently they draw in light
flicker to open with all their might
hark all around, yesterday sings still
the night's woes they perch on the window sill.

gently, so gently i recall alone.
all those things i hath condoned,
i hath condoned for the love i bear
for all i hold with you i share..

this is the moment i look you in the eye
read all your sorrows as they pass by
shall i make them as much my own
for neither should fight our battles alone
cradle you softly, so softly
adore you ever so willingly
my love, think yourself so fair,
that by a fault that is yours, unaware,
though much i travailed i cease to run.
my life with you can't be undone..
i sought for you long and hard
succumbed to you without my guards
by tasted sweetness make me not to rue
with your sentiments that oft appear so few
but how can they?
how can anything do such harm..
no more can this heart be so alarmed
at hurt and distress that come in scores
nought i hath not plunged through before

so much have you rendered me weak
for each ounce of love in you i seek
i only wish to mean as much
to you beyond what you can touch
forgive me of my misled ways
sometimes affection leads me astray
and often does it lead me to fear
ways i could lose the one i hold dear

i love you in ways none can understand
from the sound of your voice to the grip of your hand
the kindness of your smile and whatever it hides
so easily my worries with you subside..
i asked not of looks that kill
one that bends to my every will
i asked not of lavish things
you alone complete my being.





here's to nine months of us together sayang.  i guess you forgot..

i love you anyway.

sorilah dah lame x update. malam sket nanti update betul2 k.

in the meantime, silelah menatap gambar si-comel dan si-gedik ni...

X)

xx