i'm really that useless at updating my blog these days, right? and all of you beloved loyal readers must be coming here checking for new posts everyday because i see hits from the same locations everyday on my live feed. i know Syuk comes here often wherever he is..johor, kl, whatever because this blog is like AIR to him. apparently theres a lonely soul in some place called karnataka that's clearly obsessed with me too. and do i know anyone from hawthorne victoria? hands up please! i like seeing all these international flags.. india, australia, indonesia, philippines God knows whomever i know from the philippines, egypt once..russia? usa..oh dublin! i know that's definitely Adrillerh! XD yes she stalks me that girl. how do i entertain all of you now, i forget how i usually do it..

i sit at home this fat cow of myself curling up in bed most of the time God bless these rainy days that keep me in bed.. this family has not been on a holiday in the longest time. let alone abroad. the last time i was out of the country was when i was 12. in fact right, i don't even have my own passport, because when i was 12 i shared one with my mum. X). this is just to emphasise how lame and sloth-like and very unfortunate i am during holidays. i forget what travelling and seeing new and awesome places feels like anymore. i implore, someone please rescue me.

because Berlina's going to FUCKING EGYPT TOMORROW. how effing brilliant is that. i'd like to see the pyramids with my own naked eyes i really do. do you know how soaked i am in self-pity right now? XD

anywho, i might be going to teluk batik next week or so but don't tell mum. because i don't plan to myself.. XD. i'm not being menacing, it's just that these days being very rainy and inconvenient and all, she'll make a whole lot of necessary fuss over safety and such that i can kindaf do without..very ignorant of me but i'm a first born daughter, ergo i am born stubborn. =)

anyone going to egypt won't get to go though.. HA HA..   XD

neither are those busy shopping like crazy in kl now that it is the sales season... raaaaRRRrr..

anyhow, these pictures show you what have been the only closest experience to a holiday i have gotten.. =)

yang lain tengok kat facbook lah..sume orang ade facebook kan.. KAN??

XD

and ade a few blom edit lagi tgklah bile2 rajin..

it has been six days since the Bukit Antarabangsa landslide, it has been six days straight that the government and media have been blaming and scorning THE RAIN for the catastrophe now i say, let's grow up and talk like mature adults now, it's almost been a week..

as far as i can see, albeit not being a very big fan of rain, rain is however a blessing from God.
the thing that caused the landslide if you senile old farts in the parliament and the not so very intelligent media refuse to address much up until now is that many mega infrastructural projects, not only that of Bukit Antarabangsa, in this country have been garnished with lies and corruption.

lagi satu..SALAHKAN BUKIT?? what next, TREES? THE WEATHER BEING TOO HOT? O' SWEET LORD I BESEECH HELP, THE GROUND IS ACTUALLY MADE OF SOIL??!

for fuck's sake seriously i don't believe i'm hearing any of this.. and to think the brilliant prime minister of us is, as he wishes to be seen by God's will, wise and intelligent enough to order that all projects on hills and cliffs to be stopped immediately.  THE LOST CITY OF THE INCAS..AZTECS..WHATEVER.. WAS BUILT IN THE ANDES MOUNTAIN THE RAIN NEVER DESTROYED THOSE and it's been thousands of years since it was first built. the original path up to Cameron Highlands built by the English back then is still looking what do we have here..strong and sturdy. so is it still hills and the soil and the rain, inevitably existing as they are, your ultimate excuse?

we all know that Malaysia breathes corruption. without corruption, Malaysia will sink and perish forever. like Atlantis. or don't we know it already? okay well here i'm reminding you. this is a country where datos can get away with building a palaces on lands that are not their's standing for many years before anyone miraculously realises that it's actually wrong and that they should do something about it. this is also a country where contractors are infamous at paying engineers lots of money before the work is even entirely done. i would know because there are friends of the family who were civil engineers who resigned because it killed their conscience to be earning tens of thousands building things that would actually kill people in time..like Bukit Antarabangsa.

so congratulations to mr. i-think-i'm-Gandhi-or-something who runs this country. yes, stopping work on hills will definitely solve landslides..

Civil rights are the protections and privileges
of personal liberty,
guaranteed to all citizens by law.
But it doesn't take a bachelor's degree to know
some laws are flawed,
some deals are raw,
and who is it that draws the short straw?

Dykes on bikes; chicks with dicks; flaming queens with pink lipstick;
teachers; tailors; tax assessors;
my mother; your father; law school professors;
mullet mamas; baby butches; leather daddies; auntie ems;
sisters; daughters; brothers; sons;
coworkers; roommates; college friends.

Michael Carneal opened fire in paducah because his classmates called him a fag,
a fag named Matthew Shephard died lashed to a fence because he wanted to kiss a man,
a man's name was reason enough for Brandon Teena to be raped and wind up dead,
and the dead will continue to pile up until we take a stand.

Some may wait for science to say that we are born to be gay,
but I don't need scientific studies to tell me it's no choice
because I'm a lesbian and I never chose to be this way.
I played the game of orientation
that's expected in this great nation;
married a man and had some kids,
but it never changed the truth.
And while some might think I'm uncouth
my love isn't theirs to forbid.

The USA is supposed to be the land of the free
but that's not what I see.
How can I bee free when I can't even marry?
The neocons beat the traditional family drum
claiming that Adam and Steve threaten the sanctity of Adam and Eve.
But it's only because they want you to believe
they aren't to blame for what marriage has become.
I say it's our turn to have an opportunity;
maybe we can teach them the sanctity of wedded matrimony.

Congress could unstack the deck
and void the blank check
that's used to keep us concealed.
It's time for them to use their constitutional authority
to protect us all from the tyrrany of the majority.

Let the homophobes howl!
Let the christians call foul!
They're still free to teach their kids that it's all wrong.
But it won't matter
because the gay community is proud and strong!
We're here to say we belong!
Just like you,
we're citizens, too,
and that can't be denied even by those
who disapprove of who we like to screw!

© Mary Mudd

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1. every morning i wake up and i thank God for giving me a chance to live through another day.
2. every morning i wake up realising my life isn't that awful afterall. i don't do drugs, i don't do alcohol, i don't go partying every other night passing out and waking up in some stranger's room.
3. i never go a day without having proper food to eat.
4. i've had a wonderful childhood that has made me who i am today.
5. i am never in a life-threatening position, that my house might be bombed by terrorists neither am i suffering from a fatal illness.
6. i still have vivid opinions on a lot of things in everyday life, so i'm not all that ignorant.
7. i was never raised filthy rich, and i don't always get what i want, but it has taught me to never take money for granted.
8. i was raised to love animals and life on a whole and it has taught me how to love fellow human beings more than i could ever imagine.
9. i am intellectual in my very own way.
10. i consider myself to be quite a fast learner.
11. i may not have everything i want, but i'd rather have some than not have at all.
12. i still have the capacity to be witty and charming somehow..
13. i have a beautiful family who loves me very much and have taught me how to age gracefully.
14. i have friends whom i adore and would risk a lot of things for.
15. i have an amazing boyfriend, who is the love of my life, who tolerates with me so much that sometimes i take him for granted.. nevertheless i love him so much and i won't trade him for anything in the world. now i should try to not be angry with him all the time over tacky tacky things and sometimes for no apparent reason. i'm sorry babe..please don't be sick of me.. =(

these are only some of the things in life, that i am immensely gratefuk for..

suddenly i miss how cute and innocent my brother and sister were..

=)