The next person who comes up to me and goes something like...

"You think too much."

" 'Cos you're like....(insert a judgemental personal comment)."

"I told you so."

"Why are you getting so het up about shit..."

"I think you're wrong."

...I'd probably try to shove an anal probe up your you-go-figure,-stupid or if I can't, I'd say...

"Back off, bitch, you're WELL out of order. Don't even TRY to underestimate me because obviously it'll be a very...VERY serious offence in a sense that, I WILL HATE YOU FOR IT until I decide not to. Don't JUDGE me like you know me. Don't TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK IS RIGHT when the sadder part of it, is that you're even more of a screw-up than I am. Don't try to belittle me just because you know my ultimate weakness. Don't SPEAK like you now own my self-esteem. Don't smile and shake your head while looking down at me as if you're an apostle. It is NOT okay. APPARENTLY, if you can have an ego, I deserve to have one too, right? You may think the best glory in this case is to finally undo me but please understand the gravity of the situation, I AM VENGEFUL. In one way or another, if I feel like I'm sitting in a puddle of piss, I'll be sitting while wearing YOUR BOXERS AND BRIEFS. When I just made a fool of myself, WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT to start picking on me as if you wrote the Torah? If I'm not invincible.....SO ARE YOU!"

This is the part where you go.....oo, what brings about?...

 --->EVERYTHING. MY forte of embarassing myself - one. People time and time again emphasising on the fact that I'm JUST a squirt who happens to have her mood swings as often as a baby's nappy need changing and that it'll be aaaaaaalllll alright when she calms down later, " 'cos you know...she doesn't have that much capacity in her to like...oh i dunno, blow up a building or whateverr...*giggles*." It's NOT PMS, what you're gonna tell me how my uterus works now?! My head. Is like. A time bomb. Stop taunting me.

I'm sorry to brag but there you go. I know, my biggest mistake is that I'm too unnoticable to be noticed to even TRY to make a difference. People look pass me at first glance. For the past couple of years, some of my friends have been talking to me as if some of the shit I talk about will die off one day. That I'm this volatile, little nonsense, a one-hit wonder, that will one day realise...nobody MY worth can ever really make an impact on anything much...

Guess what. I'VE HAD IT.

piss off.

>>>TAGBOARD'S AT THE BOTTOM OF THE PAGE FOR SOME RETARD OF A REASON...<<<

Lol, don't start ignoring me now. But then again, like it makes a difference, too many SILENT READERS i'm done with persuading them to comment... 

Yesterday I was stuck with two choices, yeah...

1. Go take a peek at school's Choral Speaking team at practice since I've been telling Vern I'd go and watch PROPERLY since like forever and you know, it'd be impolite to say no at the very last minute....again.

2. Join my minahs for Gubra since we've been waiting for that flick since long and you know...how could I ever ditch a no-questions-asked FUN day out when it's concerning these freakomaniacs in the nicest of ways... 

Well today I took BOTH OF THEM......

I arrived at school at around 10 to see Vern not there, and you know, my not being one of the ex-upper echelons of choral speaking before, I didn't dare to do or stay much without her, lol. And mind, because of the obligation and fear of feeling oh-so-guilty, I actually turned down Gubra for CS earlier in the morning. So then, figured it'd be mega stupid to be hanging around school any longer I told Nana "I want to go", Fairuz "Book tickets for me", and Azie came to pick me up from school.....I know, like so totally fetch, huh...

When we arrived at Jusco, Nana and Fairuz were in Coffee Bean paying for their mochas....AAIIII! DAN-DAAANNN......, ie; *I soo sense alterior motive, baybehh!!* lol...Sat down and talked, while waiting for this supposedly-cute guy (please refer to last trip), ARIFF. LOL, Abang Ariff kalau terjumpe blog nih and terbace kan, silelah rase perasan sikit so that next time kitorang menempek kat situ lagi dah tau sape kitorang kaaann...aa, pastu reti-reti lah datang menegur, yek?

AHAHAHAHAHAHAH, dear God, seriously, with these girls I know no shame whatsoever you bet like FOR REAL....xD. I turn a hyper-perky psychopath with fake balls....lol, you go dwell on that thought now...

So then we went or lunch and talked some more. Oh like you don't know us...memperli orang, mengutuk sedikit sebanyak, mencapap, 'menembokkan' muke...standard arh, Comebanks!! Kehkehkeh...

Then went up for Gubra.....

Godhelpme, literally whatthef*ck is wrong with that film...

WTF is wrong with Yasmin Ahmad's head...she's one demented woman I bet she never had proper toys to play with when she was younger...

Gubra is the sequel to Sepet. If you shallow people think that the second time around should be prettier and more princessy than the first one well you're WRONG.....

The script were perverted and sex-driven for a MALAY movie, okay...and for those of you who are not all-too familiar with how porn is portrayed in the Bahasa Melayu it's not pretty....trust me on that. Asshole sound SO much prettier than some now...

That movie, got us all going like..."Eh?!..." "Ape la masalah..." "Loorrhh, kenape macam tu pulak?!??..." "...aku tak boleh terime, weh..." "Eeeeeee, tolong laarr!!..." "Aku pening.....pening..." "Aku sangat geli..." "Apesal sangat bodoh ni..."

...all the way through, alright?...It was bloody confusing and DIDN'T MAKE BLOODY SENSE. I'm not gonna spoil too much but Orked got married to this sick excuse of an old fart who's played by ADLIN AMAN RAMLI. If Yasmin Ahmad's so obsessed with preaching on racial culture and all them cultural-budaya tanah air shit right, WHY let ADLIN practically snuggle and kiss and fondle and caress and pick-up and...stuff LITTLE KID - SHARIFAH AMANI?!......that was so not right. Yeah okay, it's so purely honest and all but seriously, it's NOT right, okay?! When I watch a very artistic and detail-driven Malay movie I expect the promotion of decency and corrected culture of the locals......so yeah, the producer's a retard at that. It's like since after SEPET's success, she's trying to buy western interest more in being tooooo secular and liberal until stuff are just not 'us' anymore...but otherwise, her movies, the part that I like about them is that they're, yeap, artsy...very resilient. The beginning intro of Gubra itself intrigued me. How stereo-typed Malays spread margerine onto bread with a teaspoon and not butter knife...you know detailed almost-meaningless elements like this is what makes her movies so...incandescent. But still it does NOT forgive her...foullery and shit.

-"Ape sangat ade kat die?...Sotong die...ade cheese(?) tau." ~"Cheese...itulah sedap!.."

~"Bile aku tengok kau makan...aku terpikir...macam tu lah laki-laki **** perempuan..."

......seriously.......HUH??

And the ending was just...downright bodoh...

At the end of it all, we got so confused with the ENTIRE storyline Nana, Fairuz, and I had our legs crossed on the back of the seats on the row in front of us while people were already walking out while us going...."Aku seriously pening tgk citer nih weh...*reflects*"

BUT...do watch it for the sake of knowing what happens after Sepet...for the sake of seeing Ipoh on silver screen again...for the sake of enjoying the movie from the dramatic view rather than story-wise...and for the sake of getting shit-confused for the fun of it...

Gubra - Miscellaneous:

- We were seated at the very back row, so in the middle of it, Nana and Farihah wanted to go pee, so they didn't want to bother people.....and got out by jumping over the back of their seats......then Nana got into the Men's toilet by accident, LOL....sangat bongek...

- During some parts of the movie we got squirmish seeing disturbing scenes, lol, so we were tugging on each others' sleeves and stuff...

- There was this Scottish guy who watched too! AHAHAHAHA.....how did I know he was Scottish?! Well I took it that he was one cos he was wearing a tartan scarf. Sorry, Scottish and all but er...who wears a SCARF in the theaters...*rollseyes*. Lol, so yeap, scottish, only he was old, but old people have children and grandchildren and all you know...Scottish children, lol.

I was in the mood for scribbling...and was feeling silly enough so what the heck...

durga, mia, ber, sitot, geeta, yokemun, ling, sam, bernard, beh, li-shan

nana, hanna, ej, fairuz

The other night I got off the phone with Nana from 2140hrs till about 0245 hours and couldn't go to sleep...so I thought of finishing up my bag design...

...there. Nothing much, just yards of backstitches on a boring bag that I thought I'd never wear ever again cos it was black and boring enough said. The writing part actually says "aimincharge" but screw my cursive it doesn't show well. I ended up sleeping for 3 hours only that night. gah. Then I thought....hey I could like use it to daily lectures and stuff...

Which brings me to my next point. I am verily, now officially a student at Kolej Matrikulasi Kampus Negeri Sembilan. Registering on the 15th of May. Fuck.

Don't really know what that extra bit at the end up there's supposed to suggest, I mran I am grateful,...Godhelpme I am, amin to that but damn does time fly super fast and please, do not ignore this cliche. Because it does.

There are ten thousand things I'm gonna miss now come to think of it. I just squeezed Biscuit my cat who was sleeping on the bed just now, so hard until she screamed to get down. When I told mum about it she was thrilled, yeah, but when I told her I'll be leaving in a month's time she sounded just a wee bit morose. And I'd probably be leaving when Dad's away for this 1-week inter-varsity cricket tournament he's hosting. (Speaking of which, I feel like playing cricket sooooo badly right now you have no idea...). So yeah...might not have him seeing me off to KUALA PILAH, NEGERI SEMBILAN then. God knows why it was even in my list of campus choices, lol. 1 year. It's not like A-levels where you'll almost always will have loads of things around to take your mind off....things, the stupid campus will probably be in the middle of the woods if anybody's concerned.... But I am thankful that it's an offer nevertheless, heheh, just 1 year before proper full-pledged University Student title and all.

But to think of leaving this hard-core privacy of my room that I've earned, right...it's a little scary. I have a bigass kingsized bed all to myself with four pillows and a bolster. Own closet full of stuff. The way I arranged fifty thousand things on the dressing table from books to the stereo to the little antique globe so that i'll still have enough clear space in the middle. The bits and pieces of luxury here and there. I'll be sharing room with a stranger, okay. In the middle of the suburbia.

I'm not ready to be that serious yet, period.

I'll be like 3 hours from Ipoh, Fairuz'll be like 5 frigging hours up north in CHANGLUN, KEDAH. LOL, it's sounds almost like she's in Thailand....Changlun...

I'm gonna miss my CATS.....omigod my bootiful most adorable fluffy-wuffy cats...Won't be having Billy scratch on the bathroom door while I'm showering or Benji's big BIG-eyed stares and stuff. Gonna miss people. Yeap, people.

Am hoping I get offered a place for pre-u somewhere in KL before anything else. KL is good. Kuala Pilah is just.....antique. God knows if it even has hotspot, lol.

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On a lighter note, I love my ayah. My ayah is the bestest most admirable ayahs among all ayahs in existence. And it's sad I'd never gotten to get close enough to him and blah. Lately he's been trying to engage myself in a conversation with him wbout the randomest of things it's almost awkward....-y. lol. He gave me something REALLY mega-nice yesterday. I love my ayah.

I passed my driving test last friday. Everybody happy now? I'm happy =). I drove around the area for the first time today, ahah.

Er...that's about it for now. =)

...If I can bring all of my babes along with me to my campus, I'd put them all in a big fat crate labelled...

"-FRAGILE- DAILY SUPPLEMENT-"

aka

"KEPERLUAN HARIAN. JIKA TIADA, NANTI SAYA PENGSAN, TAK BOLEH HADIR KULIYAH. NANTI KANDAS EXAM. HAAA.....CAMNER?!" 

Was one of those days again when we go out and find ten thousand ways to be as intriguingly silly and dramatic in front of loads of people again. Honestly, I can never get enough of this. We now know Jusco like the freckles on our faces. And not complaining, mind, heheh. This is just rapturous...

~ Day started with me dropping my phone, so now there it is the big fugly blister on the bottom right corner of my purty baby....=(. I dropped it and the sensitive bugger DIED ON ME I almost died with it too. So took it to the shops and asked the cocky lady to fix it and it was all better but I was still pissed with my clumsy self for the big fugly blister. *smacks forehead with palm* kenape bodoh sangat...

~ But that's alright 'cos obviously I had so much fun afterwards I forgave my stupid self. Lol. Saw 1001 familiar faces.

~ Went for the karaoke booth thingy just for the well foolish fun of it giving no shit to whether we sing well or not, ahahaha. Next to our booth there were these....*cough*....girls, right...*cough*...familiar and all, yeah...*cough*....lol, were being so fanatically dramatic with their choonings and all to some Malay songs, so silly us as per usual felt like imitating them and yelled out at the top of our big big voices along with them just for PURE ANNOYANCE. At one time there were 9 of us in our booth and all 9 of us were yelling out to their Misha Omars and shit. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, we love attention. I know they were bothered but YOU THINK I CARE?!?!?

~ At McDs' we saw Zarul. Omigod, y'know, like, only like, the coolest SMI dude right, y'know the one whom once upon a time rapped this like, littew itty bitty part with RUFFEDGE that once upon a time like, some time ago? Oh y'know, LIL' Z...the one who coronated himself celebrity after that one like, itty bitty part? LOL, we were thinking of going over to him acting all BIMBOTIC as usual and stuff with pens and napkins going "Zarul, Zarul!! Zarul, I minat sgt kat u lah, Lil' Z, mintak autograf boleh tak?!?! "... and then walk 4 or 5 steps away and crumple up the napkins, chuck them away and laugh but thought better that it'd be too meeeeeeannnnn..... xD.

~ Sat in a round table talking about what we're gonna wear to the next biggest event that we'll be stealing all the limelight from.....=D......formal event this time. What to wear, where to meet, how to create a bigass grand entrance EVERYTHING......

~ Went into Shades, saw SiewWei. Tried on one hundred and one sunglasses for the fun of it, trying to be oh-so uber glamourous again, lol, then Fairuz got hers which was a bonus 'cos it'dve been embarrassing to walk out of the place after trying out so many pretty shades but not buy any, (oh wait...but we DON'T know whats embarrassment anymore...) LOL. While she was paying, Nana and I waited just outside the shop bored, so creativity got the better of us. So we put our own shades on, acted all cool, then pretended we were one of the staff ushering people in, LMFAO. Nana did most of the talking, "Good Afternoon! Welcome, sila masuk!..." I was trying to hold back a fit of laughter cos people were looking funny at us.......;D

~ Sat around people watching. Very productive, believe me...

~ Met up with Syafiq and Azuan to only know he likes...*cough*....this very familiar girl *cough*....that we annoyed back at the karaoke booths, AHAHAHAHA small world.

~ Took pictures. The first one at the top, guess what.....we bodoh-bodoh dengan selamber dan tak tau malu seperti biase.....went up on the mini stage where LOADS of people could see from a distant and started camwhoring.....=). We love attention.

~ Black Canyon....Kay first, lol, LINGY, ARRIFF WAS THERE! AHAHA and he caught us glancing a couple of (more like lots) of times, ehehe. BR dude was there. In fact, was right in front of us walking the opposite direction so we bodoh-bodoh stopped midtrack just to see him walk by and up the escalator...."Aiii, sah-sah pegi kat rooftop nak 'poof-poof' tuh! Wakakaka. xD." Yusuf dude was also there. And obviously, the ultimate, MEGAT WAS THERE TOO, AHAHAHAHA. So obviously we got our caffeine fix at Black Canyon again.....

....i'm-so-hotter-than-u byotch was there too and glarig still. Pfff, you're so way below our league, sugarpie and we ACTUALLY wrote this for the fun of it and slipped it in the bill wallet for the waiter to take back to the counter....lol. Just for the fun of it. Doesn't mean we're not coming again yeah....=). Yeap, the whole staff so know us already. Isn't it just depressing that we'll be leaving soon and they won't get us bringing drama into their loft every week now....sigh....lol.

I'm seriously in larve with this picture you've no idea.....everyone look so happy....

......won't be having this anymore in a month's time onwards, huh.....

~ Ming, Jen Yie, and Jia Yan did their best. Takes a hefty load of guts to go up and speak in front of people, it does...and bearing with the aftermath, where people'd be ranting judgementally, stereo-typing, be all dramatically disappointed and stuff....really, go up there and check the crowd out for the first time. It's not easy. Heck it's not easy ANY time. You watched, you commented, then be done with it seriously...

~ My aftermath was that I lost RM5 to Zhi Sheng gaarrojidsfilqhxvvrjheawnxm........screw u, pfffahh. lol.

~ I realised I missed FooVinNe mega-heaps.

~ I remembered debate is fun. SpaceShot-fun. It's so thrilling but overdoes your adrenaline, really....=)

~ YoungPeopleSlavesFashionTrends = not  proper motion, okay. SO stupid. What's with the think tank of the debates this year. And seriously, what's so bloody wrong with being obsessed with fashion. It's a healthy drug that people are entitled to with or without money, oh yeah baby...

.....by far shortest post lately, 'cos I want my breakfast nowehhhh.....

love is...

INDIE ROCK

...click and play or i'll throttle you...

Indie Rock is my drug. Emocore that requires ultimate pickiness. It is astronomically better than childsplay, TRL-y, pre-teen FALLOUTBOY or THE CLICK FIVE whiny...highschool-stereoshyte driven lite-punk. This is Discovering the Waterfront by Silverstein. Only ONE of my many favourites. Music that screams expressive passion from every little object that makes noise in a song. Mae FFAF Anberlin AlterBridge DeadPoetic Dishwalla...and guess WHAT. They can pronunce each syllable properly unlike FallOutBollocks...lol. No offence, all.

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love is...

SEAN BIGGERSTAFF IN A KILT 

Yeah okay the picture's like almost 4 years old. Yes his hair is disgusting. Fine he doesn't look the hottest that he's DEFINITELY CAPABLE OF like other times but it's the only picture of him in a real kilt I can find and I love Scottish guys who're proud of what their made of. =)

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love is...

ART

If Claude Monet was a considerate person...he would've written a will, that after he dies, his working hand will be sold on eBay, so that a couple of decades later I can BUY IT. I wish I can paint like that. Freestyle gradient...perfect lighting...good dimensions and all. My artisticness is getting critically rusty I think...

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love is...

Lol, if you say out the title more or less as it is spelled it sounds like an oklahoma-bumpkin whatever accent. Yee-haw...

And I mean it in both ways, the title. I've been dehidrated for so long it definitely shows. Uneven skin tone and crap. I think I have a syndrome or another where I can't tell when I'm thirsty...cos most days go by with me drinking at the most 4 glasses of fluid and sometimes I can even survive with only one mug of fluid...

Oh and disgustingly dry hair so I 'de-haired' myself today.

Couldn't even be arsed-bothered to go to the salon and get it done I just ask my mum to chop it off. Chop like 4 inches off, lol. More like a bob than hair now, nyehahaha. I was feeling silly again (like that's new) and didn't remind her how not-so-short I wanted it to be and it turned out shorter and if this was four years ago I'dve thrown a fit and gotten hulk-paranoid about it but I didn't today so....yeah, bah. Lol, but now it means I can get up on days and don't have to walk for the hair brush. Fix it every so often and shit and that's super. And I shall learn to heart it so much .

It's Nicole Richie short....

...but obviously not as fine as hers. And her bangs are awesome-er. THAT'S IT I get!! I need to stop eating like her so that my face'll shrink so that the mop-top'll suit better waheeeyyy.......xD.

...And drink more I guess being a good girl *cough* to the 8-glasses-per-day rule. Notice I never mentioned water but fluid instead cos I don't like water. It's bland. I like flavoured liquids. Like milo. OMFG I love milo...I only drink water when havin real spicy food. And the portion of a glass would be; 3/4 ice and the other quarter of aqua. And I crunch on ice with my molars. Everyday. It's a habit. Agonizing, I know but it's been there for 5 years now God knows how I can even control already....hehhh...

(I can't help but thinking all that I've just wrote sound so typically omyfrickingawd American......this is SOOoooo todays debates doing.!! guoisuiebgnslirarnavra.....which I shall get into later...)

More or less on the same topic.....I LOVE PARIS HILTON SO HELP ME I do...She's a whore-class bimbo-princess! So ridiculously ignorant (not so much stupid) but really glitzy at it that it's like totally forgivable. I admire.

"Hello? I'm rich...Be nice to me."

Guy: I'm gonna have to give you a B...
Paris: That's hot *with the 'im-paying-attention-but-couldnt-care-less' look*.

...so priceless.

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No more loose vowels now. Seriously.

Debate. Rotary Finals 2006. Walked in on the reply-speeches part for Group B's debate so can't say much really but based on reply-speeches jsut those...I'd say Group B's debate was NOT SMART. Mediocre. Bland, go home la! =).....I've already felt that way, what can you do about it?

Group A. AMC(Gov) vs SMI(Oppo). "ADVERTISING DEGRADES THE QUALITY OF LIFE". First speaker, Yong Wei, aka LimLiLi Jr., was good. All fired up. A nutjob at impromtu jokes. I rooted for her for BestSpeaker. BUT.....on the whole, yeah,....AMC's stand was there but they kept on sweeeeerving awaaaay from the topic so often and played fun and games instead. There were SO much that they could've said like elaborate more on money matters or give more examples on the degradation of the quality of our lives that resulted from advertising but chose to be more entertaining than substantial.

SMI was ace. They hit the right spots most of the time. A bit personal at times but otherwise good. If they had played the "The quality of life of man is not determined by something out of tv and books (advertising) but rather the mentality and principles that we choose to live by and our own judgements towards advertising" card it'dve been fun too. So yeah, tahniah to them.

In fact tahniah to the both teams for putting up a real crafty one xD...

Geeta was a girl this evening ;p, Ber and I obviously had no one to look at *cough*...-not here- *cough*...Durga was telling about form 6 like a true forumer LOL, ZS: my friend thought you spoke like a surfer dude just after the blond-girl up front ahaha, and JiaMin said she has speedos on her site harharhar.

Good debate. Good crowd. Good LAUGH....lol.

So...good night now, t-raaaaaaaa.......

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:by request. i'm taking it down later.

...see, bob. Bob tail! Ahahahaha. Not showing when it's down because I want to fix it still...

I need to spring clean. Before summer comes... 

........writers block, okay...........

- went for Azimahs sisters wedding. The groom was cute, *nods*.

- went to Jusco after that....naturally. But it was one of those VERY RARE times when I actually go to malls in baju kurung kebaya. Even my mum won't ever make me look like a parade wearing smth like today to super public places. Lol. But like I could care less today, seriously...

- met Vernie and Joms working. LOL VERN WORKING xD. So we tested her professionality at it. Not bad at all, lol. I would've bought something from but unlike some people, I don't earn RM70 per day promoting eyewear.........=).

- nothing extravagantly outrageous happened today..........OH, UNLESS YOU COUNT THE TIME I FUCKED UP AT BLACK CANYON. OMfrickinG....

.............THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED. First Nana, Ika, and I stood in front of the place, couldn't believe how unusually PACKED it was and had second thoughts about going in. Then the not-so-cute guy by the entrance went, "Megat takde, die rehat....*sniggers*". Pfffffft, lol, erk....
But then we had like an hour left to kill so, masuk je larh!....Ordered, then talked...*yawn*. Then Faiz joined. Then we saw MEGAT, lol. So obviously, shameless us tried to take shots of without him noticing. And for that I paid my aehltnaehwfnliawheawhtlanefhawer PRICE.

.....trying to find the best angles and all.....I accidentally knocked down my coffee glass and the rim broke. SHIT.

Nana was in the lavvie at the time, I just stared at it agape for a good long while, Faiz and Ika just went er.......

Okay yeah, I'm sooo clumsy MOST OF the time but it's not like the goddamned thing fell onto the floor, alright, it just TOPPLED DOWN ONTO THE ALUMINIUM TABLETOP. >.<. SO my given luck. Good thing the place was packed so people were making a lot of noise that no one apart from like one or two staff saw. So I called for this nice staff to TAKE IT AWAY QUICK BEFORE ANYBODY ELSE SEES and to add it to my bill. I was still stunned after it was gone but that was that, not like I bawled over it or anything, lol. Eventful at least.
When the bill came, the price of the glass was the same as my coffee, BUT, thankfully Faiz decided to treat us the coffees so I only had to pay for the stupid wanker of a broken glass.

This blurry picture costed me ten quid. SO not worth it, lol....

So stalkerish but newsflash: I am not obsessed so shut up. Seriously, shut up......lol.