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Entries for July, 2005

July 3, 2005

LIDDSOC-LIDRA GATHERING

LIDDSOC-LIDRA GATHERING Posted at 05:07 PM

[MGS AND SMC'S ENGLISH LANGUAGE SOCIETY GATHERING 2005]

~ Registration!!!...

~ pretty hall + beautiful crowd *wink* =). The theme of the event was L-O-V-E...expect me to turn the hall into a strawberry-pink fest??...ptsk!

~ Sam Tet's dance club. They kicked-ass we thought. Yah!

~ obstacle course cum treasure hunt.

~ ...by the final siren none of the groups got close enough to THE TREASURE so when yoke mun pointed towards where the chest was hidden...EEEEVERYbody ran for it. Reza got a hold of it BUT it didn't stop there cos then everyone were yelling and pouncing on each other through a reeeeally wild goose chase around the field for that one miserable box of sweets...@_@. and the rest of the committee and I were watching from under the shades in fits of laughter...=D

~...more pouncing and falling...

~ ...then some were just lamely walking around yelling THEIR claim...LOL.

~ then the crowd cooled down after a while...

~ group sketch.....Ashwin's group's thing was probably the most...controversial one we thought but heck, they put on a good show.

~ ..........the farewell that was never one. our hearts go to Ming for all...ALL her effort and the juniors' efforts for planning the evening farewell party THAT WAS CANCELLED by siva prasanna el ******. all hail thy supreme being. screw your overly orthodox politics. prick.

~....but oh well, the food was ordered and we ate just before we had to leave EARLY.

~ .....i love my nametag...

~ .....the past week had been a very tense one. For me at least. I don't handle pressure well...at all. it really is nice to know people care. it really really is. and see i didn't even get to eat the candy floss i got as a cheer-up gift cos i was too busy to even remember i had it...it SHRUNK =)

I feel like crediting some people for all that had happened in the past week.....

1. Hanna and Ika.....for coming down to the hall in the nick of time I needed people to talk to as if they could read my mind all the way from class. I love you gals so...so much. Thanks for the offer, for having to sit on with me on the dusty floo in the narrowest of corners, lol, just to hear my insides out. Thanks so much. 'Comebanks' always make my day.....

2. Claytot and Geeta....I suppose you guys know me well enough to know when and when not to 'intrude' intentionally, haha. Thanks lots y'all...

3. Shaz.....you have all the reasons to ignore, but you're nice, what more can i say...=)

4. Caryn and Vern.....for being my forever faithful righthand company and confidantes in class...always. love you guys to bits.

5. Mun.....you're difficult, but an angel at the same time. DEPENDANT...but independant all the same, heheh. thanks for concerning.

6. Meli.....you're the most WONDERFUL assistant anyone could ever have...past secretarial work and documents crap, you're a real real friend.

7. Liana.....one i connect to differently, and my neutraliser. I'm imbalanced, yeah, LOL

8. Baldeep, Dur, Losch, Li-Shan, Hsiao, Ber, Chee Yan, Karmun...the 'bestest' of the best crew...

9. Su Shien and Shuwen for keeping me in one piece and loyal company while on stage...

10. Azimah.....for having to go through it all without really 'having' to.

11. My juniors for being a pain and useful at the same time...lol...during the one week of all-out decorating.

12. .....and of course SMC's LIDRA committee members who helped out with EVERYTHING till the very end, even the unanticipated 'humiliation' from HER SUPREME HIGHNESS......really nice to get to know you lot, had lots and lots of fun and missing every bit of it. =)

...........hah! bare the mushiness, I haven't been updating for a while so, ya can't blame me. =)

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July 6, 2005

a TEMPORARY advert...lol.

a TEMPORARY advert...lol. Posted at 03:29 PM

.....*sigh*.....

-so I understand the new 'in' thing right now are requests and dedications cos, pffah, some people just can't seem to get enough of 'em...

so HERE is a new request totally by request and God knows why I played along with it but then again, since you bunch just adore dedications so much, I dedicate everybody's humour with these.....enjoy.

~ THE 'DAMAGE'

~ THE 'DAMAGE CONTROL'

AND P.S. : i posted both just to save my neck. LOL.

to the request-er.....ENJOY YOUR SHARE.

.....i know i'm enjoying the laugh. ahahahahahahahaha. =D

have a nice day, beautiful people!

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July 10, 2005

[Unjustified]

[Unjustified] Posted at 04:08 PM

Sugar to tea
I think I stirred mine well
My Earl Grey for company
Atop the hill on a leafy tree
Bloody English know their stuff
Around High Hazel's green
Where's the horizon suppose to be?

They won't find me here
The ground isn't virginal
But this willow is.
I won't share it
I will share nothing, no more.
Nothing.

There was a chastity I once treasured
Of the scraps of linen that bore my flaws
And now touched by a thousand paws.
This pansy nodded
For she is no good
At protecting;
Her own terra-incognita
Before the sprites built their burrows there.
Symbiotic and loving, But a village
Versus a weakling.
Like Gulliver's tale:
Uncanny
Uncut.

Even on my own,
I'm breaking apart
It hurts too much to lose
Defeated,
By misplaacement.
By the minute,
Rememberance escapes.
Bit by bit
Limb by limb
Save my mug, please
I don't want to get scalded
It'll hurt more.

On my own, I am my hero
On my own, I am a white flag too.
But don't come running for me yet,
I'm not healing,...just so you know
Clear fragments;
Of tearful frailty
Of me...
It still hurts
So much.

How do you hurt when you cease to feel?
How do you tear when there's no water?
If only there's a miracle I can steal
When mortality feels safe no longer

Sometimes I pray for my brothful stein
One day it'll all be just fine...
There'll cme a time I shall submit
To rid all the masks that failed to fit.
Step down,
Give way to cinder's poor
And once again, I plead
No more...

I don't want to be found no more
Don't make it right;
It won't be the same
Well i'll take a cup of pain.
I don't want you to come near
No more
Say tomorrow I'll seek you again
But sorry, not today
And for now,
I'm not okay...

I promise.

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Yup, pretty much sums up my week.

In some....twisted....abstract way, it does.

Some people think they know lots and see themselves as the 11th hour samaritans.

Without realising they're not doing as much good as to even help.

I say this now, on my behalf. You don't know half of it...

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July 16, 2005

...I think I've been looking forward to this...yup, I have.

...I think I've been looking forward to this...yup, I have. Posted at 01:34 PM

...despite it being another...unhealthy...day as the other days of this week, yeah I was looking forward to Friday. Probably the prettiest thing that was going to happen all week so yeah.

So 'The 3 Mains' of MGS BOSL had it planned again this year, only this time we were only entitled to plan on what to wear, how to get there, what to expect from our assistants.....

...when all the arrangements we used to cater to last year like surveying hotels and paperwork and 'all them crapload' were done by the 'younglings' this time round.

.

Again all three of us got cleaned up, all set at Ee Lin's place for the.....for the last time as 'just us', that is. Or maybe not in a long long time. The initial plan was like this, The Librarians' 5th Formers' Farewell Hi-Tea thing was supposed to start at 1500hrs so us being the yang 'paling' diraikan VVIPs (LOL) we were going to arrive about 5 minutes later than everyone else.....turned out we arrived 15 minutes late.....worse still.....turned out there were others who came far later than us... JOY. lol. So much for wanting the 'unidivided attention'. haha. But heck, whatever.

It was fun and all. Really. The food was way better this year. The souvenirs were pretty. It just hit all of us, including me that I was the eldest among the whole lot, lmao. AND OF COURSE...our personal 'little somethings' from our assistants were the nicest, I guess. I got myself yet another plush FROG from Melissa, like the first one since the last one, Matilda which was from her tambien, haha. Me thinks I'm not much of a cuddly toy person but who was it again that started my softspot for little green frogs?...LOL. Another one into my collection. Ima miss Melissa so very much. There were those few months I took time talking her into thinking she deserved to have her rank cos she really did, and that I couldn't have had a better deputy, then later on I got more and more busy with my own stuff I took it she accepted it in her stride somewhere along the way. All's well and we know they'd make a great bunch as of next week.

Then more photo snapping.......

Then hometime was.......hometime.

Indirectly too I made up with a friend I haven't been talking to for about a week and that's my weekend's worth. At least that's one thing to make me look forward to school next week.

......o yeah, and after that I got to bio tuition like 25 minutes late cos of the rain and all, up the staircase I went and opened the door and VOILA.....my gorgeously wonderful juniors, jian ai, benita, hsin lin, joe ee, kuen may, yun xin throwing another happy 'retirement' cheer in front of all other unknown tuition people despite me rushing to get to class. I love them so so so very much and am gonna miss them just as much too.

~Ee Lin's speech.....which she wasn't very good at what with bits and pieces coming from the helpful crowd along the way, LOL. I'll see her everyday in school 45 degrees to my right in class but i'll miss her in 'secretary general' mode...yup

~Jian Ai, Ee Lin, Me, Benita

~Sam and Me. Another one I'll miss in 'sergeant' mode too...

~Espiritu de Azul por eternidad..... recuerdes nos otros siempre.

~...lol, Sam looked the best in this one but heck.....we still have the 'The 3 Heads' in red around but 'The 3 Mains' in blue are done with. Yup. No more. I'm really.....reeeeally gonna miss this. Those times we used to walk from the library to class in the mornings and people down the corridors going all '...u inseperable bunch' or when we used to get called by HSH together and then tell little kids off and whatnots. O well, los amigas para siempre, we'll definitely try.

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July 19, 2005

rub it in like sunscreen...

rub it in like sunscreen... Posted at 05:48 PM

....eyeah, don't mind me, i shouldn't mind much either, SHOULD I?.....*rollseyes*

So.........Thursday 21st July 2005

tarikh keramat.....

Yeap, National Level Parliamentary Style Debate Tournament, 2005.

Venue: INTIM, Ipoh.

Heck I wouldn't have even known when and where had the rest of the committee of the art's club and I were invited to be a part of the organising team. Probably for like the last...last time I'll be in charge for stage and hall decorations during my soon-to-expire schooling days. We started hoy misma (today) along with 20 other kids from school who were responsible for carrying the chairs and tables off the stage just before the performances after the actual tournament. My 3 girls and I get to sit with the audience on the day itself, though. YAY.

.

.....I sat in the first speaker's seat on both the government and opposition's side.

.....I tested the mics.

.....I touched the tables where they'll be writing rebuttals on.

.....felt the adjudicators' seats.

.....examined the whole perimeter of the fancy fancy hall...which Vinne and I agreed not minding losing in.

.....pretended I was the Chairperson reading out the rules and regulations.

.....I SAW THE DEBATORS...............

.....and yet I was called to.....decorate the bloody stage that looked gorgeous already.

The irony of it ALL.

But today was fun...fun...FUN.

. I love my arts teachers. I love artsy people. I LOVE ARTS. They can really talk so professionally yet so 'freespiritedly'. And unlike stereo-types, artsy people aren't neccessarily emo. I figured I need to get in touch with my artsy self again. My arts' teacher asked if I could have my works for the past 3 yrs to be displayed in the Kenyon Cottage on Speech Day. This proves that I haven't been doing much painting and crap ever since some time ago...but like I have the time.

Tomorrow I'll be at INTIM again.

On THURSDAY I'll be at INTIM again por seguramente!

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July 23, 2005

617, Staniforth Rd.

617, Staniforth Rd. Posted at 01:19 AM

.................I was desperate for a TITLE.....

[3 Days At Intim College]

~Syafiqah, teacher's adorable kid, moi, Nazira

~ =)

~...i like feeling important

. That's the chief adjudicator's seat, btw

~...teachers watching from downstage while we had 'mock debates' on stupid.....stupid motions with the finale of 'sounds of music' seeing that the whole area was empty with no space for self-humiliation.....LOL.

~dressing room.....lol, i dunno what we were trying to do but were practically going into doors and every passageways we could fine just for the fun of it during intervals.....=)

~...on the actual day itself when the hall was still empty and the speakers were in quarantine...

~so we were given really strategic seats and these were the HAPPY us at the beginning of the event...................just before a****le Wong decided to serve us as the embarrassment for the day threatening us to move to the back in the middle of the debate so he could STEAL us for a while to do dirty labour for him, see. The guy's a pain and.....enough said.

~Motion. I figured the debate wasn't..........fun. No spunk, no....'charismatic styles of flinging flares and poppers for the audience to wow at', I suppose.....more of a, diplomatic discussion over tea and jammy scones, really.....And a lot that they could've said weren't said or put to best advantage and....oh well. BM debate sounded way...WAY more infusive and captivating. BUT, to our greatest, REGRETTED dismay.....WONG confined us backstage for the labour we weren't entitled to, see. So.....yeah. we MISSED it. Ta very much.

~....damn....

~The Team.

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Yeah I reckon the 2 day- preperations were much more enjoyable than the actual event itself. We had the place aaaalll to ourselves for the entire days and just us without nosy teachers or little unwanted brats poking our backs with pins and needles every now and then.

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I figured it's hard....harder for me to trust a lot of my peers anymore. Yes it is. To realise and clarify that there's disloyalty and deceit within the myrth of being around those you love caring for and acknowledging and getting the same amount back, infuriates, and is disappointing majorly and hurts a lot at the same time. I now find it difficult to look into the eyes of some of those that I speak to. Let alone open up and be chewed on.....again.

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"Like me 'cos you should. Love me 'cos you can."
~lyrithe

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July 31, 2005

'The Something Something Syndrome...'

'The Something Something Syndrome...' Posted at 06:26 PM

What people say:

Well,...ya know.....maybe *she's right...maybe it is just for the respect shit, still.
~[Yeah well, I think you're only.....3 months too late.]

Hey remember some time ago...I gave you a little...'task'? Are you successful?
~[God help me don't I WISH...hmm, so you actually thought I'd pull it through?.....I'm stunned.....with gratitude.]

Diaorg taktau pun idup kte...'tunggang terbalik'
~[Exactemente.....belah sane aman sentosa Darussalam.....sedeh ke tak sedeh...]

I think you are a...a legend...the last of the Mohicans.....what are we gonna do?...
~[Thank you.....I think I'm hungry...]

So...its winter...whens spring....whens it gonna come?
~[I like winter.....everything's hidden under blinding white beauty which is of nobody's wrong-doing but a Godsent interlude to hibernate unfinished, messily composed symphonies 'till the next season looms over...yup.]

What I remember saying:

"I drove the YELLOW KANCIL into wet CLAY down Picaddily Circus and now I'm stuck..."

"If you're gonna make us bridesmaids in Kadazan dressing, so be it, at least get proper groomsmen too...."

"I've been going around telling people I'm through with it but do you really think I honestly want to 'be done with it'?.....

"We're done for......the something something syndrome hits -SMACK- and they say they can fix us!!..."

"...it is the means of making up rational shit for the sake of retaliating."

"Damn, you don't know...you SO do not know what you're doing..."

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My little summer snowman called Herbert's protecting me from Aphrodite and her little pixies and sprites and pink-coloured leprechauns from the burrows underneath the big field of purple shamrocks and I think I've packed enough fleece, gloves, scarves, baked potatoes, and an extra pair of Wellingtons to last for a couple more months.

I don't need that just because you have it anymore.

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For what is worth:

- I like raspberry cheesecake
- My favourite ice cream flavours are Pralines n Cream and Strawberry Cheesecake.
- My favourite type of cheeses are Parmesan and Mozzarella.
- I haven't had my caramel frapuccino in the LONGEST time.
- I want that BEAUTIFUL pair of blue nikefree pumps or whatever it's called again....
- I loathe it whenever people intrude my privacy or what they call my 'forte for solitary' with absolute deliberateness so don't blame me if I bite then...
- I don't tolerate animal-discriminists for any rhyme or reason.
- I've been counting the number of glasses of fluid I take daily and not once have they reached the wonderful 8.
- I don't tolerate hormone instability FOR ANY WARPED REASON.
- Comebanks make my day.
- There are 2 distinctive meanings to the verb 'like'........apparently I chose to ignore the 2nd definition.
- I am growing horizontally, no shit.
- I think I receive greater inspiration from God knows where when the air is bitter and musky.

Hey I've just realised from listing nice and pretty things I came down to being sombreful....

Raspberry cheesecake to bitter and musky air......lol, Bride-Consultant of Chuckie! Muahahahahahahahaha.

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Oh yeah I just have to say...

To the one whom've had it planned to wreck my live (*yawn...cliche), well ya have but I'm not gonna piss and moan about it. God knows who you are but may karma turn you in.

Rest well, my preciousssss........

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Sigh.....tomorrow is another day. Another Manic Monday.

Have a nice remainder of the weekend, beautiful citizens!....

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