Entries for February, 2005

February 2, 2005

I LOVE YOU GUYS I LOVE YOU GUYS Posted at 09:53 PM [img:232339] I'm serious I'm serious I'm so abso-frekkin-serious I want this to rewind and start over. Pretty please. I've gotten into some real thinking and I don't want to be this ignorant little selfless bitch for not bringing it up so here, do this one little favour for me,...please? I've only barely...7 months (?) left with you guys and ditto to that for you too. I do care, okay? And I want to know me being concerned about this will go somewhere. Stop being stubborn little kids, please? God, I sound so lame but who cares...Do this for me. Do it for the both of ya. I've been thinking about it long enough. I'm not gonna shut up and watch and wait anymore. I'm gonna try, or TRY to try to help and make it work. Please please please, make it work for this final, final year, okay? No joke, I'm serious. See this serious face? >> Okay, good... Cyrano de Bergerac ::: Ashlee Simpson - Better Off go nuts

February 5, 2005

Soy MUY Feliz!!!! Soy MUY Feliz!!!! Posted at 01:25 PM I am over Jupiter's moon!....> OMG, I'm a happy camper! Gracias a Dio, cos I'm super super super super super super super super happy. Like so extremely embarrassingly happy!!!!! Start of the day I was a surly little self-outcasted mess, then I embarrassed myself a bit...no a lot...then stuff happened. Oooo, stuff happened. I'm so so so thankful for having been helped out at doing whatever it is that made me so Goddammned happy today. I'm spreading joy....lotsa lotsa JOY!!!!!! Cyrano de Bergerac:::: Frankie J - Obsession go nuts

February 8, 2005

el final INSTALLATION DAY el final INSTALLATION DAY Posted at 01:55 PM ooo lookie, lotsa piccies!! I'dve put more had ee lin not steal my dvc for the entire holidays. the last ever installation day with my work of art on stage...hmm...with the assistance of the maha-great edi board and my beloved librarians . [img:535684] silly Ee Lin was uber nervous when i took this pic...lol [img:535685] Sam...the most 'tak tau malu' on through the entire documentary...ahaha [img:535687] ...when i was busy looking for my camera...little kids took turns at their 5 SECONDS OF FAME!! [img:535686] ~another frame-hogger...Tsuey =P ~Yi Chien n Ming Lee [img:535728] ~Liana and some other person... ...i dunno her... Cyrano de Bergerac ::: Beyonce - Dangerously In Love ::: go nuts

February 9, 2005

rhise and shyne... rhise and shyne... Posted at 09:33 AM I had to wake up at 4.30 in the morning, for godssakes, to clean up...to clean up CAT-SICK. @_@... on my bed...oh yeah on my bed. no shit. it was green and icky and green and slimy and with stomach solids too. and was it enough?? nooo...my adorable kitty had to finish off the leftovers on my carpet. on...my...carpet. cor blimey, are they lucky i don't usually get cranky in the mornings. at 4.30 IN THE MORNING. DURING A PERFECTLY HEAVENLY SLEEP. in the middle of a pretty dream where someone was OFFRING TO MAKE ME HOT COCOA!....... so in the end, i had my bed-spread in the laundry basket, and the carpet outside fo a thorough rinse. *eyesrolling*. when all was done, i retired sitting at the foot of my bed knocked off. poor kitty was peeking by the side of the door with his super cute innocent face and big eyes as if he knew he was in trouble. awwwww...i love my kitties!! =D ... then i fell asleep again and had a dream of me hanging by a stairwell by a thread stitched and knotted into my neck... go nuts

February 13, 2005

You've lost me... You've lost me... Posted at 10:11 AM "A good traveller never plans his destinations." -some ancient Indian expeditioner- I had a fab holiday. From a bowling outing suggestion turned to a night at Banting Lake north of Perak, detoured 5 hours to Kota Bharu + a couple of hours around town what with fully booked hotels down to the budgeted ones. Were in luck when there was still a couple of bedrooms left at New Pacific. Weren't planning to go to the East Coast so screw early bookings. Next day scouted around town and shopped for silk batiks, noon drove down old costal tarmac through Terengganu for a good 7 hours and had tea at dad's friend's place, then another 1 hour tthrough Pahang to Cherating where we met up with my cousins at Eastern Pavillion. Went for an afterdark seaside stroll, my sibs and little cuzzies hogged the pool till midnight. Next day woke up at dawn, in time to cathc the pretty sunrise in the oceanic horizon, had breakfast, lounged for a couple of hours, drove down to the north-south highway 5 hours away. Had dinner in KL, then travelled the final one and a half hours back home. Bah, was all good. Minus the time I Goddamn refused to talk to dad when he was driving like a sick madman at night. *shrugs* =) [5 states in 3 days and 2 nights!! *satisfied grin* =] aHAH!!! when I say I saw a volcano, -means I SAW A VOLCANO!!! =D [img:539742] sunrise!!!...-sigh- Charlotte Martin - Wild Horses go nuts

February 13, 2005

Interlude Interlude Posted at 01:39 PM Tell yourself "I have found my vineyard, just after the last note to my symphony. It was a cryptic tune, but I pretended still; to make out verses, that I thought I've heard afore. It told a tale, of the Mediterranean cry. One midsummer's morning, while the maid was kneeling, by the urn in the fire. And as she poured for her child, It sang." "I remember the tamarisk along the virginal coast. Our own terra incognita. That's where I've heard it before; the cries of the newborn solace. As I creased thus faintly, It sang." "It sang of another story, That of which I once more lost. I lost so much, I saddened a few, But with all that, I've found you. All was dismissal, We shall make this solitary. So much to risk but should the world come running after? This is our song. It speaks the truth. Peace shall be our prize. Away from prying eyes." But pry they still do, child. Look as I point to that picket fence, Is that your sister by the broken steps? Well she stands by her duty, Swears to never succumb. She watches you, from a painful distance, As she flicks around, her only aquaintance; To remember you by, a rusty tuppence. -aimisyaz- go nuts

February 14, 2005

Happy *bleeping* Valentines Day...pfffsskk!.... Happy *bleeping* Valentines Day...pfffsskk!.... Posted at 07:06 PM Sorry for being a total killjoy but heck, I don't like Valentines Day much. I don't have the reason to like Valentines day. Hence, I do not desire to like Valentines Day. Valentines Day somehow gives me the more reason to mourn in vain. It's either that or laugh at 'mushpotteries'. And I was in no mood to laugh. *shrugs*. Maybe some other time... BUT...for the sakes of sake itself. My *bleeping* Valentines if it had to be is... >>>>>BILLY MARTIN!!!!! <<<<< I love Billy so so much... =) ........................................... Pullitzer, hmm?.....me encanta Bowling For Soup - Almost go nuts

February 27, 2005

till we meet...again. till we meet...again. Posted at 12:24 AM "If I were to deepen what's left a shallow creek, so be it. If I were to brush my hair with a fork, so be it. If I am a menace with my words, to let menial words filter through the right exits, to speak but not heard, if that may be, with all God's will, so be it." I'm sorry. Sense fails me so embarrasingly. Words turn into evanescent seraphs of uselessness. I'm jaded. Confused. In denial. In need. I'm sorry there was no time. I'm sorry if I have to be. That I know I have to. I love you, and miss you.....so badly. You're wanted back because you deserved divine love. You truly do. But for what's worth, I want you back..... "Only in His doing, when He wishes to (make be) that of which He wants to, then command He shall: 'Be thyself! Upon my will and urge, thou must.' Hence, be it shall. And so with His Godly purity, all that is everything, lies in His hands, and to Him thy shall return." [Surah Yaasin: 82-83] Amin [img:552031] Latest picture of dearest grandmum at Cherating. 10/10/37-25/02/05. God bless her soul. Amy Lee - Forgive Me go nuts