When Laziness Invades.... Posted at 08:14 PM
Ahh, por final...numero uno! Que bueno, y ahora....:-
~~Muchas gracias to YOU who told me I sooooo need this thing since I always get cramps writing in my journal *rollseyes*. Sigh...
Plus...sigh...time's never too generous to me this recently.
The ONE thing I was really looking forward to all week. My...ahem me and my team's pizza party at Fran's last night...uughh...and I was called for emergency at the VERY last minute!! Why oh why??...Oooh...the envy...To think of ickle vinne eating MY cheese pizza is too much to endure! Lol, ima shut up bout pizzas now. Phew...so much has been happening over the week.
Primero>> the agony of defeat...oh, the ultimate agony!!...but I
guess I'm kinda over that already. So not a sore loser.
Segundo>> been catching up with homeworks....and sleep!! I'm
such a nocturnal freak so me catching up with slumber
is during the day then wake up at 1 am and starts...
sigh...reading...like I have any other choice (!)
One thing good about not being so preoccupied over comps anymore, I get to catch up with spending time with my friends....awwhhh...they missed me being in class sooooo much. *sob, sob* Gave them hugz first day back =). I'm like, thaa new kid in class...i need updates!! (oo-er, which reminds me...2 dued essays!! owhh mannn!!) And i missed my library peeps...so so miss'em! Ahh...one plus point in...losing..hmm...I get to be a part of tha social community..once again!! And it’s ironic to think that, when you don’t have one damn stressful bit about comps to worry like hewll about, days just pass like minutes...not good. Too much to catch up yet so little time. I need deliverance...
What’s a girl to do when she finds out that up to this point, officially ‘16 anos, 1 meses y 10 dias’ old, yet still in the brink of incomplete fulfilment?Yup, sad but true. Gosh, i’ve gone this far....this far and I’m still down there. Being involved in what I’m mostly involved in now has taught me so much of myself. So much of the things I should’ve known ages back when I was still ‘learning’. Learning to ‘stand on two feet and walk’. I am aware of my capabilities but I still feel left behind. How do you overcome the feeling that, when you think you’re inseparable with the the thing that you like doing the most. You think that you’re good at something, then when something goes slightly wrong you just feel like everything’s coming down crashing at you. It’s like, you’re giving up on something so close to your heart. Not easy. (*reading*...i’m so not making enough sense, lol). It’s at this point, this stage of my life that it’s all coming back. Somehow and for some reason all past memories seem to be flooding my cerebelum and I can’t help thinking to myself, “Had I not have to have come back..” This is all a twisted reality full of confusion and unending puzzles. I’m still trying so hard to find the missing pieces. Escape seems like the only way out for me. To some it might be the arrival of something, or someone new in their lives to brighten their days. Me? Escape! Take me halfway around the world, NORWAY for all I care, I want out. I’m on the verge of drowning in things i love but have no absolute control upon; my social life, life at school, academics, family, and everything that goes with it. I don’t know how to set straight my priorities and because of that, I tend to be ignorant over them. Like I don’t give a damn about anything. It doesn’t matter, ‘cause all I need is to escape. See, it’s so friggin’ hard to put emotions in words, so so hard. Owh heck, Sean Biggerstaff said and I quote; “S**t happens, get over it.” So I’ll live with that. Nuff sed! Being too uptight over crap is unhealthy. There. I’m just gonna sleep on it and ferget it!
Now for less tense business. Suz’s got her ‘ai ren’s phone num...awwh. Sam won’t keep buggin me with “Ames.....****** is sooooooooo cute, and adorable, and perfect in every single way!” *rollseyes...again* lol. Vinster won’t come off it with her ‘cow’. And, oh boy...the list goes on. *shrugs* guess love is in the air...Spring..*awwh* ; ). Dilip’s gonna screw me tomorrow for forgetting to pass up my karangan. I’ve got PE tomorra...YAY!!...after missing it for 3 weeks...sigh...And I’m gonna screw Ee Lin after what she did last week...aaaaaggghhh....That wuz sooooo not funny kid! For I am wounded with thy mockery...lol. Done with. hmmm....like whatever, I’ll see all of them tomorrow, glory! hmmmmm...-resting-in-pieces-
then she crapped on about interact iu day, sum 'stuff' happened at our school, courtesy of otha kids from other schools up to their 'businesses' again...lol. and, oh yeah! i was soooo looking forward to PE and it was cancelled!!...uuuuggghh...stuck in class 3 storeys up, flippin' hot, doing dumb softball folio with ee lin, sam, vern, suz and ky. *shrugs* just had a laugh with them and left the work till later. we 'tormented' the biology trainee teacher in front of the lecturers...mwahahahaha...ahem. other classes were...sigh...the usual. amelia made us a timetable for cs..*groans*...busy, busy..;P
. then after sooo long, i finally get to bully vinne AS HER SUPERIOR doing her library ava duty rather than the usual team mate arguings...heheh. I was all, "You're on duty, kid! Get back in there! Leave the 'adults' out here.."...mwahahahaha ;P. me and sam booked prime seats and even the prefects thought we were one of the most exuberant supporters....awwh, im sooo proud of them. 3rd place and all. oh well. met sylvia.
