HI EVERYONE IT HAS BEEN YEARS..

but i'm a bit pushed for time so gona make this a brief one.

LOADS have happened in the past few weeks i feel like i need a personal schedule planner. you know, a person who goes around wherever i go with a walkie talkie and a clipboard reminding me i've got to do this this and this..

initially i had ultimate frisbee practice two nights a week getting ready for March's IChemE Sports Day. scratch that plus the preparations and endless meetings for that too since the date's been pushed to October how sad is that. everyone was already looking forward to it. October is like lightyears away. boohoo.

so starting last week, even though one bit of my time table's out i still had band practice on odd nights and footsal practice whenever we could and dinner with friends slitted in between XD. well the futsal practices paid off because...

=D

ok it's not gold but it's the next best thing. we beat last year's champions though hehe. final was a tough match. their defence was the shiat. good shiat. but our rise to the almost top was epic though. i scored 7 goals overall. it felt AWESOME. my team was awesome. =)

here's 5/7 of it =)

and here's what's left of my shoes..

i hereby reccomend against NIKE shoes they always have problems with the sole.

and i am now late for dance practice. we're performing tonight at Kolej Teratai. toodles! X)

ok, so due to the confusion some have expressed toward the last post, let me reiterate.

the word 'Allah' in the Arabic linguistic context does not only mean God. it means ONE sole existing omnipresent God that does not coincide with the concept of Trinity, is not three deities in one, cannot be used to refer to the father of Jesus Christ, is not Jesus Christ, is not the son of the Virgin Mary, is not a Ghost, cannot manifest into a human form either, cannot be venerated through the consecration of bread and wine. the Holy Trinity is not a doctrine that existed by itself since the beginning of time. a council of bishops, men, in the 4th century started it, that's why the Christians during the times of Prophet Muhammad and Jesus were allowed to use 'Allah' because at those times, they truly believed in the existence of a single God in practice and in speech and respected this for the sake of their lives. time has changed, Christianity has changed, to the point where using 'Allah' today by The Church would be, for want of a better word, a sacrilege.

that's why you can't have it.

i'm sorry for being so abrupt. but seriously, read up on these things before you decide for the best of others let alone yourself.

AND on a ligther note.. =)

hehehehe.

OMG how annoying can UiTM guards these days get right?! macam shial. abu shah dulu tu pun satu, orang yang tak layak jadi professor tapi dapat jadi ex-vice chancellor memang macam tu. WHAT FUCKING SENSE do you have at all, OBVIOUSLY there are more students than lecturers, so WHAT LOGIC was it to reserve 3149820943 more parking spots for lecturers than you do for students, and then barring those lots permanently from our entry. wtf. bodoh gile. sakit hati kot tengok parking spaces kat tempat staff kosong-kosong je kitorang yang kat luar ni berebut-rebut nak park berlapis-lapis kuih lapis sardines in a can. and when we try to find even the most elusive nooks and crannies to squeeze our cars into you come to us with your annoying whistles, you give us that tight face i'd like to pepper spray for the fun of it, you scoff and go "staff ke student? park kat luar."

luar mane, dah full PANDAI, nak park tengah2 jalan? watch us one day, biatches.

anyway, IChemE Sports Day looming.. sponsorship progress looking bleak. anyone generous enough to donate 80k perhaps? =(

ethics project...we might go into the forest, make friends with some natives, then visit the wildlife conservation park and bathe the elephants doesn't that sound awesome?!?! =D

it's called, Projek Orang-orang Asli dan Gajah.

the other day, Nad and i were excited when we saw this thing on the news the other day. it was about this wildlife protection program on an island in Sabah. Pulau Gaya i think. they have this sanctuary there by the seaside where they breed endangered corals and sea urchins and starfish and turtles and such on land, then when they're big enough to continue in the wild, scuba divers carry them out into the middle of the sea and put the corals among the natural reefs in the water. OMG COOL GILEEEE NAK JUGAK! so we were planning on presenting this idea to our group, you know, for our ethics project.

Nad began the 'presentation' this morning like this.."korang! jom beramal dengan hidupan laut.."

everyone laughed their tummies out.

me: mungkin introduction you kurang memberangsangkan..beramal dengan hidupan laut....... -__-

hehehehe. oh but bathing the elephants sounds wicked sweet enough! =D

next entry. will almost definitely be a mushy one. don't hold your breath.

XD

no class the entire day today, how neat is that.        

so my back to school week has been ok. i think i was sorely missed ehehehehh. the lecturers we're having this semester are ok. that's definitely an upgrade. i can't say the same for my 2nd round of chemical reaction engineering though because i'll be getting the same lecturer that failed me in the first place.

I CAN'T SAY I DON'T MISS HOME THOUGH. i fucking miss my cats like shit crazy. this obsession is critical. i'm sure i'll die an old crazy cat lady. and i'll drag all of you along with me. because i can't stand people not loving my babies as much as i do. X)

first jamming session on monday was fawesome. in the sense where everyone screwed up at some point so i wasn't alone. ahaha. we tried Lady Gaga's Bad Romance and i think it has the potential of sounding wicked sweet once we ace it. in time for IChemE Sports Day homg can't wait!

speaking of which, Ultimate frisbee practices have already beguuuuun!  ..as of yesterday. we borrowed 45932758 discs from the Sports Centre to practice. just the day before we played futsal. the first since forever. and practically every square inch of me was bludgeoned because i defended more than i attacked because halfway into the game i was completely BEAT. my legs were like pudding. once, i stood right in front of the goal, and Nadiya kicked the ball hard straight into my tummy. XD

see i hardly have anything too exciting to write about. apparently my opinions go to sleep as soon as school starts. chemical engineering robs me of being creative. i think an engineer's idea of ideal is different from how i used to see it. i hate it when i'm being taught to make sense of something JUST CAUSE. there's no just cause, there's a reason for everything. even an ideallic artist knows you can't make paint out of food, flies will start founding a metropolitan on your canvas. not JUST CAUSE people don't normally do it. psjdf.

and i want my own guitar. why can't i afford my own guitar. this sucks. i hate waiting forever for something i want now. don't we all.

malays please stop burning down churches. you're not venezuelans. stop living up to your 3rd world country citizens' name. God stop. you're mad we get it. i'm mad too. but fucking wait like nice and polite Muslims Goddamnit. Allah told us to never destroy houses of worships. duh, idiots. you can't exterminate Christians nationwide by burning down churches. personally i don't support the usage of Allah's name in The Herald either. i don't want to sit around waiting until the time comes when Allah's name will be used like "Allah, Son, and the Holy Ghost" or for this gradually secularised country to allow other religions to go 'OMG we're so alike' (God forbids) either. we're not alike, our God is the same, but religion divides us by the way we worship Him. but i don't go around acting like hooligans. chill. we don't need another huge racial slur. the actual idea of racism is not erradicating the differences. it's acknowledging the differences by simply keeping it shut and walk away. but okay, up to a point, you just can't ask for something that's not yours, and expect to get away with it just like that. this is not something a human court has the right to decide. it's considered blasphemy. obviously there's an ulterior motive, we think. you can't blame us. i really don't support the burning down of the churches. but there was a way that you could've avoided that. don't ask for what that was never ever and should never be yours for a reason. like i said, things don't happen JUST CAUSE. you cause it, it happens. but our government is orang-orang bijak pandai, they ought to know what to do. and i urge, GET A MOVE ON. no more burnt churches please. behave. they may have not the right to use Allah's name, but they do have the right to practice their own religions.

and these malay students studying overseas ni jangan banyak bunyi boleh tak? you don't fucking know what's going on stop acting like you know even better watching us from all the over wherever. i can't stand the students who go "OMG FREEDOM OF CHOICE!" "JANGAN SEMPIT SANGAT OTAK TU!" sape yg sempit otak bai, kau x selidik habis2 isu ni nak jadi king of all judges plak, podah.

oh wow, did i just write a bunch of insightful things up there? i'm not a lost cause then.. XD

p.s.:  no offence meant to the Non-Muslims, seriously. as much as you're voicing the rights that you should have, i am merely voicing out the rights that i already have and will forever have. which is to preserve something that's sacred to me. something that you could go on living without. so why not we go back to the way it was. no hassle. i still love you friends, don't start ignoring me yet..i know some of you already are, even before i said all of this..

i feel like SUCH a Sybil Vane right now..but i won't go to the lengths of jumping into a river and die in my best dress just to prove a point.

--- omg i so dozed off for like an hour an a half after only 1 sentence

anyway, so the other day i think i was being punished for not being grateful for the my fully funkshionable right hand. referring to the last post, you know..ym-doodling with my left hand while i was lying on my side too lazy to sit up properly, blogging with my left hand because i was too lazy to sit up properly..

then *BAM* God tooketh away the use of my right hand for a few days..

it happened when i was mauled by a vicious rabid beast the other day..

ok rabid no. vicious yes. beast? if you'd call a semi-persian cat a BEAST.

Sushi was picking a fight with my baby Biscuit so my immediate reaction was to pull the blonde furball away from her. AND THEN she twisted around, and went for my hand on all fours. her teeth sunk deep into my hand and her legs kicking and scratching my forearm. i cried for help for like 10 whole seconds. Ibu came running and sprayed water on her until she let go. i ended up with holes in my hand near my thumb joint, and grazes all over my arm. there's this big hole on the back of my hand in particular that was spewing blood like crazy after the attack and i cried and cried. then Ibu took me to the doctor for an ATT jab and then the nurse cleaned me up and gauzed me. IF THERE WERE STITCHES INVOLVED i would've died in a puddle of my tears and nose goo..

when i got home i felt like throwing up, my headache wouldn't go away and the ponstan couldn't get rid of the pain. some sting this cat's got.. i had to stay in bed all day. stinking from not showering in two days. room service dinner and Ibu had to debone my chicken and strip my prawns.

now two days later, my thumb joint is still swelling but i try to grip objects properly without hurting. anything remotely heavy like the shower head and i wince in pain. i still fumble at writing so there's no point going back to school yet..

this one hurts the most. looks like a cool mini-bullet hole doesn't it?! X)

so i was listing down the things i can't do without a movable thumb. i can start typing today with both hands. but i couldn't play guitar hero on the mobile without both thumbs i was like "nooooooooo!.. *gelabah*" every 3 seconds. let aloooone practice proper guitar. i couldn't even wear a bra myself. OMG biggest toll i discovered..i couldn't empty the ice tray myself. and yesterday when there was no one home to help me i DIED without ice to chew on. I DIED, this is not overreacting. and it has to recover fully before i start Ultimate training!

but i'm well today. i can carry on doodling for whatshisname to his humour..

thats me. with the brown helmet.

oh but this has got to be the cutest though, because i didn't do it...

sorry for the hearts galore. i'm not usually like this.. XD

OH and i have a new obsession. you're going to want to hear this. or not but you'll have to hear this anyway. read..you'll have to read this. i found him disgusting and scrawny and omg what was with the hair and ew accent what was that supposed to be and NO i didn't find him at all sexy period.

but thennn i watched Dorian Gray, an adaptation of Oscar Wilde's The Picture of Dorian Gray. he was so as loserish as Caspian was but the more i watched the film the more i was like omg can i have you please..

it's the same kindaf mania-filled delusional obsession that i had for the likes of Henry Cavill and James McAvoy. it's this thing about British men that you begin with thinking how disgusting they are and then 5 scenes later you want to know everything about them and start IMDbing them and you want to find out which chip shop thay like to go to so you'll start having your breakfast dinner and tea there the next time you're in England so that in this alternate world you'll bump into them and for some reason they'll chat you up and one day you'll be having babies with them. i mean it really isn't that much to ask for is it?

so watch Dorian Gray. Colin Firth's in it too so it can't be that bad. it isn't bad actually. if however you find the storyline somewhat lame, blame Oscar Wilde. not my baby Ben Barnes, nor the producer. But it would've been fun if they did it based on the first edition of the book drenched in homoerotism. I think the 21st century can handle it.

and before you break my pretty bubble i'll tell this myself first. i do realise that if he was to lose that long mane of his he'd look like an English version of pale and sickly looking Toby Maguire which is never my type (i don't fancy scrawny guys), there's something about that smile though that is so.... Charlie Cox cross Tom Wisdom WHICH I BOTH LIKE VERY MUCH VERY MUCH.

and now i am out of new English films to watch at home. any suggestions?

so before this semester break started i kindaf vowed in the presence God and everything He breathed life into that i would PAINT. well i did..just not with real paint. =)

this here is a masterpiece. DON'T JUDGE ME. it's so cute you'd want to stick it onto your fridge door and your cork board in your tiny office cubicle. there's just so much love and passion put into this my sweet-toothed cat, Candy, would want to lap this up like pudding..

i call it HAPPYNESS! happyness is being crazy enough to light up the fireplace when the sun is blazing outside.. -_-"
happyness is living in a distorted house we used to draw when we were 6, and have an orange cat and a unfinishly-drawn rabbit frolicking in the tulip-filled garden. and the sparrows overlook as they glide in the air towards the clouds. the sparrows are always flying towards the clouds and the sun.. and then a lovesick black stickman runs around holding a heart-shaped balloon and a hyper purple stick girl hops around with her arms in the air because life is just lovely..

ok i really shouldn't be taking all the credits because my only contributions were the house and its chimney.. -_-", the tree, and the unfinishly-drawn rabbit. i was too lazy to get up and doodled with my left hand while lying down on my side omg don't judge me.. you know, like now. X) IT'S LIKE I DON'T HAVE A BACKBONE THESE DAYS..

the other stuff..a little boy too lazy to study for his pbl did those.

graphics are courtesy of Yahoo! Messenger.

and speaking of masterpiece...

i present to you, masterpiece of the year...

you see, cupcake decorating should be as wild as possible in my opinion. you have 50 cakes, how many times can you actually screw up? THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS SCREWING UP in fact because just as you should never paint inside the lines, you should never be too cautious with colourful icing either. and the upside of this too, no matter how fugly the decorations may be...

or bizarre they may look..

..my butter icing recipe would taste just as omg divine...

so go nuts!

so on new year's eve we..hanna, ika, ctot and i, made these..

and we had TONS OF FUN. the more daring..and elusive..masterpieces were hanna's work. i prefer tall spiral towers and squiggles. ika likes demure cute little round flowers n trees and stuff. i don't have a lable for tot. XD

IT WAS FUN! the day started with us taking forever to get out of bed, pastu dgn x mandi sume went to get supplies at Wah Seng the super cool warehouse store for baking stuff they have absolutely everything.

then we got home and melepet some more, and only started at about 2.30pm. finished close to 7. by then everyone was icinged with sweat. and i realised towards the end everyone was getting more and more knackered that the designs started to look more and more alien-y and 'omg what the hell is that i don't know whAT I'M DOING ANYMORE..'

XD

so that was that. my 2009 was a bit of everything. i don't still grieve the horrible things that happened. life is a vicious cycle. and God will never put you through anything you can't handle as long as you're still alive. Even if he is punishing you. this is cliche but i'd rather be tested and punished now and see myself pull through, rather than be punished then when everything is terminal, you know..

so my new year's resolution won't be anything specific. cos i think there's a LOT to be fixed in me and i need to like, classify my things to fix in groups. like being a better person. under that class will be things like..

- less complaining and more of being grateful
- be less judgemental about everyone.. it's horrible that i always have something to comment about every tom dick and harry like say how lame their names are. and i can link that to the mentality of their parents and et cetera.. it's horrible. well unless situations like, you're not so thin and you're dressed like a tramp. you're just asking for it.
- i should comtrol my anger. i get annoyed too often. i need to loosen up more. i get uptight about people being uptight. it's ridiculous..
- God i'd take forever to get this list done..

but you get the point.

anyway, here's to a better year. at least i have you..

and oh i need to spend less on things i'll wear only like.. 2 and a half times.. for instance, just because someone else has a gigantonomous collection of knickers doesn't mean i need as many as well. i wear a bra only about a third of the year perhaps, why do i need so many..

you know, just for instance..

cheerio.